Notebook

I was cleaning my room
today
found a green notebook
with your name on the front
and a note that said:
"To Brittany. Happy Birthday!"
I opened it up
flipped through the pages
saw poems you wrote for me
saw poems you wrote for you
there were so many.

I saw a letter inside
I read it through
it brought tears to my eyes
I flipped a few pages
saw a small note in the corner
"for you"
the title?
"My Last Prayer"
I read it slowly,
then set the notebook down
hot tears flowing down my cheeks.

I remembered that dark time
that dark, dreary summer
I can't remember why
we were mad.

that letter, that poem
that was why I called you
that was why I wanted to apologize
that was why.

looking at it now
I'm still crying
I want to be good to you
I don't ever want to hurt you again
I want to be your best friend.
or even more, your sister.

I want to pluck the stars from the sky
and give them to you.
I want to give you Jupiter's moons,
wrapped up with ribbon and paper.
I want to give you the warmest winter blanket,
one that's already warm when you get into bed.
I want to write you the best letter,
send it to you with a kiss.
I want to do everything for you.

I want to love you forever and a day,
and an infinite amount of forevers after.

I love you.

-Yeah, she knows who she is. <3-

<3 - brittany