Don't Dream Too Far

you didn't say my name.


you didn't say my name.


my stomach drops out
and all I can do is stare
at this stupid blue script in my hands.
I want to cry
I want to scream
I stand up, can't feel my legs.
I want to get out of here.
someone grabs my arm,
watches me with pleading eyes
it's my best friend, but I walk away.
I give the script to the assistant director
I didn't want it anyway, right?
I feel like everyone is watching me,
pitying me.
don't do this to me.
I make it out of the auditorium,
and the tears finally come.
I get to the bathroom, wipe them away.
I have to go back.
he's watching my face,
looks like he wants to tell me something.
and then my best friend's arms
are around me.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."
me too.
I'm sorry I dream too far.

-Post-audition.-

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Give Me a Chance

who are you to say I can't do it?
who am I to listen to you?
I know I can.
I want to.
just give me this chance
I can take it and run.
I can take it and FLY.
I've flown before
felt that rush, that thrill
of the wind beneath my wings.
EVERYONE DESERVES A CHANCE.
isn't that what you preach?
practice what you preach.
give me a chance.
nothing can bring me down.

-Pre-Audition.-

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Fear

we haven't "hung out" for a long time.
but through certain circumstances, we've
ended up in this line, waiting for this ride.
I look up, terrified
by what I see up there
calliope, top 40, and screams
fill my ears
I don't want to be here.
I'm practically shaking
as I stare at this monster
but then your hand is on my shoulder.
I look away from the beast
and into your smiling eyes.
"hey, you're gonna be okay."
I shake my head fervently,
then look up again.
gently, you pull my face away.
"don't look."
you squeeze me into you.
it hits me in this moment.
I watch you, wide-eyed and silent
I remember how I believe in your smile
and I realize that I've missed you.
laughing, you say,
"what are you so afraid of?"
I said I didn't know
at least, not about the ride.
but I know what I am afraid of.

losing you.

-This is old, from last summer, when the band went to Lagoon. My best friend and I were able to spend the day together, something we hadn't done for a very long time.-

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