Because of That

I see you every morning
as we wait at parade rest.
I watch you blow warm air through your horn
to keep it in tune.
I wonder what you are thinking
with your eyes to the ground, to your feet.
It's because of that.
I watch your eyes
as I bring my flag over your head
I smile as I pass
making my way to the thirty-yard line.
I wonder what you are thinking
as we cross paths on the field.
It's because of that.
I stand with you at attention
at tedious but exciting award ceremonies.
I sense you straightening your posture
proud of your performance.
I wonder what you are thinking
as the announcer begins to speak.
I sit with you on the bus
as we ride home from Lehi, Layton, Provo, Logan.
I feel your head resting on mine
the setting sun warming your upturned face.
I wonder what you are thinking
as Peter Pan plays in our ears.
It's because of that.

I love you
because of that.

-Field show competitions and best friends. Awesome combination.-


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Keep Telling Yourself

why do we fall for the one
that we know we can't have?
you keep telling yourself,
"just friends, just friends."
but you want more.
you want him to hold you
you want him to laugh with you
you want him to color pony coloring pages
just for you.
but he already does that
for another girl.
you keep telling yourself
"stay strong, stay strong."
but you know you can't.
the more you see him
the more you hear him
the more you touch him
the more you twist that knife in your heart.
the more you hurt.
you keep telling yourself,
"it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter."
but you don't believe your own words.
you lie to yourself
you lie to him
you try to hide the truth.

but it hurts.
truth hurts.

-And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt.
-"White Houses", Vanessa Carlton. -

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